On Wednesday, Chrissy Teigen revealed that she had suffered from depression and felt “lost” after bullying allegations against her spread on social media in June.
Last month, the US model apologized for her past tweets in a blog post.
One of her tweets asked TV star and model Courtney Stodden to take her own life.
In a post on Instagram, Teigen explained how she has felt after ending up in what she described as the “cancel club.”
“Cancel club is a fascinating thing, and I have learned a whole lot. Only a few understand it and it’s impossible to know until you’re in it,” she wrote.
The author also confessed that she has been struggling with depression, adding that “going outside sucks and doesn’t feel right.”
She also stated that her depressed mind races when she is home alone.
Teigen, famous singer John Legend’s wife, has more than 34 million on Instagram and 13 million followers on Twitter.
After her controversial past postings resurfaced, some brands stopped sponsoring her, and three major retail department chains dropped her signature products from their stores.
The television personality also stepped down from her voiceover role on the Netflix series Never Have I Ever, being replaced by American model Gigi Hadid.
Back then, Teigen stated that she was not seeking sympathy and responded to the accusations by saying that she was no longer the same person who had written those “horrible things.”
The model said that she had changed after getting married, having children, and attending therapy.
In her most recent Instagram post, where she continued talking about the so-called cancel club, she said it was complicated to talk about her situation.
“And it’s hard to talk about it in that sense because obviously you sound whiney when you’ve clearly done something wrong. It just sucks. There is no winning,” Chrissy wrote.
Teigen also claimed that her post intended to show that she wasn’t pretending everything was fine, adding that she wanted to be honest because she was “tired of being sick with myself all day.”
The 35-year-old woman posted a lengthy apology to Medium when her offensive tweets resurfaced in June.
In the statement, she described herself as a “troll” and acknowledged that she had bullied other people, believing that her rude tweets to celebrities were harmless jokes.